I’ve been nursing a cough the past days, so this morning I woke up later than usual. I was simultaneously doing my prayer time and my morning pump hurriedly (guilty of this), to be able to attend to the kids when Saria barged in my room. With much excitement, she asked me, “Mom, can I wear my Jesus shirt to school today?”. Our conversation continued on to this…
Me: “What Jesus shirt?” (I was trying to recall if she actually had one.)
Saria: “Remember? The pink shirt that they gave me when they fixed my hair?” (We had a shoot with Couples For Christ last weekend and they gave her an Ablaze statement shirt.)
Me: “Oh! That Jesus shirt! But today is Fitness Friday, right? You have to wear your school shirt.”
Saria: “But, I love Papa Jesus and I want my classmates to know that!”
Me: “Awww! Wow! Okay, you can wear it so you can shine for Papa Jesus and let everyone know that you love Him.”
I was humbled. I felt a surge of gratitude to Jesus for revealing Himself to her.
See, Saria is quite particular and picky with clothes. With all our squabbles about what she can and cannot wear, I actually feel like I have “threenager” at times. Her choices mostly resemble princess pieces because she loves Disney. Ask her about what she loves and she will say “Belle and Ariel”. She loves to wear her costumes over her house clothes and pretend that she is a princess with so much joy and passion!!
BUT, this morning, Saria chose Jesus. She chose Jesus without any prodding from me. She chose Jesus despite my initial objection. It was a moment of sheer joy and relief for me. Joy, because there was nothing more joyous than to see my daughter proclaim her love for Jesus. Relief, because I felt that God was truly in control of my kids. I’ve been feeling all sorts of overwhelmed since Andres came last October. I’ve been struggling to juggle all my responsibilities – old and new. I haven’t been modeling godly traits to my children consistently. There was even a time when Mateo asked me why I was always angry. Oh my! Our homeschooling sessions became fewer to almost non-existent. Yet, through it all, God filled in for all my weaknesses and shortcomings. It was a humbling reminder of God’s sovereignty. A reminder that though my role as a parent was integral in Saria’s formation, He was still ultimately in control. A reminder that it was by His grace alone that Saria experienced Him. His grace was not and will never be commensurate with my parenting ability / efforts.
“Therefore, gird up the loins of your mind, live soberly, and set your hopes completely on the grace to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Like obedient children, do not act in compliance with the desires of your former ignorance but, as he who called you to be holy, be holy yourselves in every aspect of your conduct, for it is written, “Be holy because I [am] holy”. 1Peter 1:13-16
Thank you, Couples For Christ ABLAZE for Saria’s shirt and for being a touch point of God in revealing Himself to her.